Try not to forget your past, cause you will for sure need it not to make some of the same mistake’s twice. God forbid you would do that! I know I have learned my lesson’s in that area of my life. I have had counselor’s tell me, not to live in the past. I did have alot of shame and guilt about my past. But, now I have learned to ask God’s forgiveness and let it go. I cannot change the past so I must move on already. So now that I have done that, I feel so much better than I did before. But, the worst guilt was when I relapsed and had to go to a group meeting with my peer’s that I had been growing and learning from in recovery for the past 2 years now! This was the worst, I thought about keeping it to myself, but then I will just feel guilty longer and not be able to get anymore rest for a long amount of time. I have found that now that I have chosen a clean and sober lifestyle, you have to feel all the emotion’s and the pain and the guilt, that I used to hide with the opiate’s and the drug’s and alcohol that I was using in my past. I had to live my life all over again and learn to deal with emotion’s all over again. It’s hard to do, but eventually you will get there. I am now going on almost close to 3 yrs of recovery. I am not being triggered at all anymore. I still attend meeting 2 times a week. (3 times) I still go to one on one therapy with a counselor, I have bi monthly appt’s with a drug & alcohol counselor too, even after this long. But, I am not scott free yet? I have been asked by son’s why I am not done yet? I said it’s not like that where your just done and your cured and it’s over. I will be back later with some more word’s to share. Debrinconcita in Portland Oregon USA.